It's amazing to think that exactly one month ago, I found myself alone for a few precious seconds before walking down the aisle to the man who stole a huge part of my heart. In that fleeting instance in the bridal suite of the venue where we wed, my knees buckled, my breath had to be paced and I realized that I don't think I had ever, in my life, felt more present than right then and there.
Having asked those who had had weddings before how they felt during the big day, I got several responses: "It was a blur," or "I looked like I was having a lot of fun in the pictures, " or "It goes by so fast." I didn't want it to be a blur, or that it just looked like I was having fun. I wanted to remember and savor every single moment of it and I most certainly wanted to actually have fun. I wanted to keep that day in slow-mo because that magic comes around so rarely in life.
Then everything happened.
The wedding party started to file in. A enthusiastically called for him over a sea of people and her voice was so ecstatic and genuine it carried over to the room I was in and made me well up with tears. And my cue came when Andrew Bird's "Unfolding Fans" started to play. It was time to commit to the rest of my life with the love of my life.
I made it to him and we held each other's hands. We were nervous and giddy, maybe a little scared but mostly excited. We whispered calming words to each other and smiled and laughed. It was everything I was supposed to be feeling and more.
The day was dreamy, ethereal, bright and honest. There was so much color! Seeing our family and closest friends touched us to the core. A girlfriend of mine told us that the reason she loves weddings so much is because she's there to witness and support a union between two people who love each other, that she is part of a select group of people who are also a community of love for the couple, and that her job is to remind us of who we are and why we fell in love with each other in times that may be stormy down the road. Isn't that beautiful? As a guest, I never thought of weddings that way until she mentioned it and it's certainly something that holds weight.
Onto the next big thing! This life just gets more and more extraordinary.